Make memories, please.
Life is tough.
Life doesn't care what you're passing through, it just keeps happening, in the worst way possible.
This was my year to be the most selfish person ever. I was going to put myself first repeatedly and I did, to some extent. It's why I put off reaching out to friends the minute they cross my mind because “I wasn't in the mood to have a conversation”. It's why I took breaks from SM and ignored messages. It's why I avoided negativity like a plague.
It's why when I thought of Bakarr and how our friendship fizzled out over the past 3 years, I told myself that I'll check up on him during the weekend and next year I'll do better. Because he's Bakarr. He’s always going to be there.
So, why am I seeing RIP pictures everywhere and why is he not replying my texts?
I still can't process it and I haven't grieved yet.
How does something so momentous happen, and life just continues to go on?
How does the world lose one of it's brightest souls and nothing, not one single thing, shifts out of place?
Make it make sense.
I have regrets and they're choking me. I'm saddled with a vault full off “what ifs” and it's weight is crushing.
At the end of the day, all we're going to be left with are memories( our priceless possession). Nothing really matters, not your fight, not your grudge, not your job, not your anything, nothing matters. Someday, your loved ones are going to cease existing and all you’re going to be left with are memories.
Please, make them and cherish them.
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